Breathe.

I'm tired.

This is very unusual for me.
Not that I don't get tired.
I do just like everybody.
But what makes the difference now is how I'm responding to it.
It seems that I've stretched myself too thin
that I begin to break.

Physically, I've got a cold that won't go away.
And my allergies are unbelievably not in control.
And yes, I'm gaining weight. Ouch.
Doc's advice: watch the diet and make time for exercise.
Boom.

Mentally, I'm thinking too much.
And as usual, the tons of information I have to
digest and absorb in med school.
Sometimes I wish there is a usb port in our brains.
Then just copy all the needed information in an instant.
But I have to face it.
God created us to enjoy the journey, not just the destination.

Emotionally, I'm cluttered.
Not just with my own issues,
but helping others with theirs.
Can't turn down a friend right?
Wrong.
Sometimes you let them learn by themselves.
Let them be responsible.
Maybe that's what He wants me to do now.
I can't give what I don't have at the moment.
Have to remove the speck of dust in my eye first
before I can begin to help others with their log.

Socially, I'm just a bit affected with the drama here
with my friends in med school.
But I know it's part of the process.
First phase:
The group gets connected and enjoy each other.
Second phase:
Get to know each other more comfortably without the masks,
and sometimes you unintentionally hurt each other.
Third phase:
The group solidifies and takes the friendship in life-long proportions.

The goal is to get through the second phase
as fast and as completely as possible.
Done with the hurts, no more strings attached
while learning wisdom side by side.

Spiritually, I'm still optimistic as always.
I'm just in a plateau after a steep slope of growth in undertakings.
Now I'm more conscious of the cliche
'slowly but surely'.
And oh, I forgot to bring my Bible back to the dorm.
I missed it because of the razzle and dazzle of the morning rush.
Tsk. I'm unarmed now.
Good thing for emailed readings for the day.
But still it's uncomfortable without my Bible by my side.
Good thing my bro could bring my bible here tomorrow.

Inhale deeply.
Exhale slowly.
Whew. Good thing for this breathing space.
We all go through this don't we?
And I believe this is helpful at some point in our human voyage.
It feels good to embrace it.


Didoy